“The Almighty Judge of good deeds and bad, the Lord God, Head of the Heavens and High King of the World, was unknown to them. Oh, cursed is he who in time of trouble had to thrust his soul into the fire’s embrace, forfeiting help; he has nowhere to turn. But blessed is he who after death can approach the Lord and find friendship in the Father’s embrace.” Beowulf
“Honey, this is the first night since school started you’ve come home and not cried,” Richard eagerly announced.
His words took me by surprise. “I’ve cried every night?”
“Yep, but that’s okay. It’s getting better, ” he lovingly encouraged me.
“I really cried every night!?”
Yet, I knew he was right. My cheeks could still feel the dampness from the previous nights laments. My lengthy dissertations on how God had chosen the wrong person for the job were still ringing in my ears too.
I tried hard to convince Richard I wasn’t qualified. Or maybe I was trying to convince God. The hours were too long. The work more than I had expected, and half the stuff I was being asked to do I didn’t know how to do. Not to mention all the books I had to read for my classes … Beowulf, The Canterbury Tales, Of Plymouth Plantation, and countless others didn’t make for easy reading! What had I gotten myself into?
But Richard was right. It would get better. God had called me to this new role at Christian Heritage School (CHS) as High School Vice Principal, and He had called me to teach. I had to trust that He saw something in me that I couldn’t see in myself. I had to believe He knew what He was doing. Most importantly, I had to know He would help me..
And He has!
Thankfully, I’m not crying anymore. Actually, I’m really enjoying my days. There’s nothing I love more than to champion young people. Whether it’s leading my class through a reading of Beowulf or sitting at a table praying with a student about their future, I love helping young people know they are loved by their Creator. There is Truth they can build their lives upon, and His name is Jesus!
I’m also really enjoying journeying with an awesome team of teachers and administrators I get to work with. I see how each one does their job with excellence, fervor, and love, and I’m inspired to follow their example. I’m so glad I said “Yes” to His call.
The work is plentiful. I won’t deny that. Most evenings and many hours on the weekend must be dedicated to the job. Yet, I’m okay with that honestly. The task God has called me to matters. Just this weekend, I was reminded that I get to work with God to see His dreams become a reality. It just doesn’t get any better than that honestly!
“If we work upon marble, it will perish; if we work upon brass, time will efface it; if we rear temples, they will crumble into dust; but if we work upon immortal minds and instill into them just principles, we are then engraving that upon tablets which no time will efface, but will brighten and brighten to all eternity.” Daniel Webster
Thank you for your continued prayers for our family. I’m convinced your prayers and encouragement moves mountains in our lives! In this season when I was struggling, a good friend of our family kept reminding me of my calling. He’d ask me, “What did God say, Amy, when you prayed about this school year and new position?” That gentle reminder was what I needed.
This is just one example of how God is using you all in our lives. Every prayer prayed. Every dollar given. Every word of encouragement sent . . . All matters and is helping us in tremendous ways. Thank you.
Many of you have given financially for us to get a car. Honestly, we have been blown away by people’s generosity. Thank you dear friends and family. Richard is now trying to convert these financial gifts to a reliable vehicle for us, yet it’s not been an easy task. He’s having to consider the make, mileage, and age because he wants to make sure what he gets is a good investment and will last awhile for our family.
We also still need to fix the current car we’re driving, so we’re trying to make every dollar we have stretch. But that makes finding the right car challenging. We are praying and have asked several to specifically be praying with us too. One thing we do know … when it comes to houses and cars, God has been hugely faithful in our lives. We have some crazy stories of God’s provision over the years. Maybe that’ll be my next blog. Many of you know these stories because you lived them with us! 🤩
God is good. You are loved dear friends. May the Lord give you staying grace to persevere through the hard. You’re not alone. With Jesus, you CAN do all things!
Richard speaking at Family Night, our weekend service at YWAM Tyler. The jacket was a visual aid, but might become part of his wardrobe. 🤭